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False Awakening, Sleep Paralysis, and Pending Death

This was one of the most powerfully frightening and sleep episodes to date.  I’ve floated in a sensory deprivation tank hundreds of times and have worked very hard in order to get this deep, so please don’t let this account discourage you from floating.

I’m floating in a sensory deprivation tank. I chose to do an hour and a half session since it had been a long day. This experience happened in the later half of the float.


I’m listening to music. It’s sort of a slow, funky R&B beat with a man singing directly to me. He has a wonderful, deep voice that sent me deeper into my comfort zone. I realize quickly that this isn’t the wake up music for my session, it is all in my head. I smile, or at least I think I do, and continue listening for a whole, beautiful minute. It’s amazing what your mind can create in sensory deprivation.

The music fades and a twitch brings me back to present. “That was wonderful,” I thought. “That’s more than enough to write about.” 

Reflecting back on all this, I now know I experienced a false awakening, and a very convincing one at that. So, in my false awakening:

I’m going to flip onto my stomach for the last 30 seconds of my float (sometimes when I know I’m about to get out of the tank, I lay face down for as long as I can hold my breath. It feels good on my back). My extremities feel numb, but I manage to flip over. I soon realize I’m paralyzed. I have no control over my legs or arms and worst of all, my face is under water. I begin to panic. A hot rush of survival fear rushes me through my situation. My mouth is muffled by water and my arms can’t find their way to bang on the wall for help. I’m going to die. I hold my breath as long as I can until I realize there is no use fighting it anymore. I have to inhale. I choose not to have my life flash before my eyes, since I knew inhaling the super saturated salt water would burn out any sentiment I could gather, so I just decided to go for it. A moment of courage. With all my strength, I take a mighty breath. Farewell.

Woosh. I’m back in my real body, frantically trying to catch my breath and calm my nerves. I knew exactly what had happened, having experienced false awakenings and sleep paralysis before. Never have both happened simultaneously. I was rattled, I still am. 

I accepted death. Rather than inhaling the salt water, I took the most refreshing gasp I’ve ever tasted. It was beautifully humbling experience.

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Annonomous Sensory Deprivation Journal Entry

At the float studio I work at, we have a journal for people to scribble down their thoughts after their sensory deprivation session.  Here is one of many entries that strike me as powerful:

"Baker’s dozen [float] today, 13th.  Time traveler, float is right.  Astronaut nowhere in time.  No place, dripping with tripping over vastness.  Transported, to a future where I’m not floating yet, woosh, I’m here, now, nothing, everything.  Here.  Rested.  Free.  I.  Float.  Free.  Bowing in humble gratitude.  I.  Float."

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Annonomous Sensory Deprivation Journal Entry

At the float studio I work at, we have a journal for people to scribble down their thoughts after their sensory deprivation session.  Here is one of many entries that strike me as powerful:

"I was encased in a stream of light blue gel that carried me along a path through the universe.  I drifted in and out of realms along my path as I shrunk in size into nothing, and then grew until I popped.  I flew through green valleys and through dark oceans, always seamlessly, my mind completely free.  Memories came and passed, and the endless connection of nature on Earth supported me the whole way.  I feel the planes of the universe and of an endless calm.  All feelings of fear or despair gone, only energy."

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